The Time!

Its'  Monday morning 2.10 a.m. and I have yet to climb bed.  Thanks Malaysia, its' public holiday and that spares me a bit of extra time to write.  It has been almost 3weeks that I passed out on the bed a second after the clock ticks 10.00 p.m.  Pretty early kan?

 

Life-routine has changed its pattern.  In my normal days, reading will be in time after time.  And now, schedule changed to early morning and mid evening where I got to read while boarding the public train. There's a book entitled 'Evening Is The Whole day' I have been wanting to reread.   

There's really a dearth of good Malay novels.

Di Bawah Pohon Hawthron is simply the best!

Working life has been real good thus far.  Got my first pay and nazar-paid, parents-checked, adik-checked,  financial checklist-checked, kucing - got new collars! dan yang selebihnya there you go. 

I am wanting to write but my fingers aint moving for I am clueless right now.  Haha. All this mumbling, I'll cut to the chase :)

I caught a glimpse on 2011 calendar and I wasn't even realized time is so alive.  Perceptibly when we've been left behind by its second, all seconds.  People said time flies fast and I always wonder how fast it is.  Now I can say it's  _____ (I lose the word) fast!  Because the only thing I can say about every day is how fast time flies by.  Often we started the day with Surah Al-Asr (The Time) without even realizing we are in deep, terrible loss.  

By  time (103:2)

Verily, mankind is in loss (103:3)

Except for those who have believed and done righteous deeds and advised each other to truth and advised each other to patience (103:4)

Have a very good night earthlings!  

Work has been BUSY. Its' a blip.

Yes, a sudden minor shock attacked me from every angle.  On my first day with the company, I tried not to come with expectations as the feeling could be dejected if those ain't met.  But what worries me is, I have yet to pass the first hurdle which is to bond with my colleagues.  I have to admit, I'm pretty reserved with people I barely know and its' always like this at the beginning.  I guess, its' the feeling that brought me away from the people and yes, the feeling is ridiculously negative.  There comes a feeling for not be able to do things, for not be able to communicate well, for not be able to deliver the right ones and the list goes.  Haha.  Im so queen of the drama queens of being a new-hire.

Ive been through the same when I was in university.  Being a leader and a new-hire is pretty much the same.  It is always challenging.  Negative feelings attacked me from different angles and it can even stopped me from doing things.  The key of the solution is always ASK because obviously negative ones will get me carried away to only my world. 

"After climbing a great hill, one only finds that there are many more hills to climb" Very true!  When I believe I am competent enough to be in the industry, I started to see the whole new world differs greatly from what I had in my previous.  In this corporate industry, self awareness is  an endless topic and could be very subjective.  Sometimes what in our mind and how we articulate things differs greatly.  Even an honest compliment  from us can sometimes be perceived by others as wanting something.     RESPECT should always be the main pillar for everything.  Respect for the people and the knowledge they have.  Respect for the personality they carry and the goal they pursue.  And more importantly, respect for whoever they are - superior, colleagues, subordinate, cleaner, tea lady and to all creatures deserved - again for whoever they are and InshaAllah, these will eliminate the negative thoughts and perceptions from the inside.  To be respected is everyone's right.  When we have a sense of respect, the whole universe will celebrate us :)  Pramoedya says, “Berterimakasihlah pada segala yang memberi kehidupan.”- Bumi Manusia My superior from my previous company (internship) dropped a message said, "It's always hard in the beginning, I went through the same phase as well. I know you're a fighter & you'll do just fine InsyaAllah."

Ah, all these mixed feelings.  I always forgot the important lesson in life where the hardest part for a human is to understand the changed life.  To learn how to struggle with the old and the new is the real challenge!  Learning is ongoing process, lets not give up when we fail, but to continue press on :)

My new team looks fun and I'm looking forward  to be part of them!

Positive vibes everybody! InshaAllah!