My heart feels so downhearted. I was dreaming for something, something I could not get because they said it is like walking on the water.

I witnessed one was given without a single equivalent effort as mine. I witnessed one roamed disgustingly without a brain function a moment even. I witnessed one sold his soul to feed the devil's lust. 

I measure my own performance and effort, I measure my own self. I  I run the show if only they knew it.  

I deserve it.